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20. July 12th. Cali. college. purple. cats. cinnamon.
stuffed animals. dancing. rain. music. chocolate. AIM. ocean.
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date & time | 02.09.09 @ 6:03 pm
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listening to |Jay Chou
right now |sleep-deprived
craving | sleep?
wanting | a Macbook
after blogging | STUDY
on my mind | "don't wanna study.."
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Version 3.0. REVISITED. This layout features the pretty Lee Hyori. Coded by myself using Dreamweaver. Images edited with Fireworks. Pictures came from various sources, none by me. Completed 6.07.06.
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So I once tried to install some hack/plug-in for cutenews that would disallow spammers from spamming my comments... but I ended up kinda screwing things up (heh). I know a lot of people aren't using cutenews anymore and think wordpress, etc. might be better, but bear with me, I'm quite attached to cutenews, so if anyone has any ideas or knows how to deal with it... please let me know??  It's just driving me crazy.At a recent party this past weekend, I ran into several "awkward" acquaintances of mine. I call them that because we know each other, and yet it's just... AWKWARD. (I am unoriginal, yes.  ) It got me thinking about why sometimes people can't just face things straight up and have to be so weird about it. For example, one of them was a guy who was once very plainly interested in me, but things didn't work out and we'd stopped talking since. We saw each other again at the party, and I can understand that he'd feel weird about seeing me since he had been the one making the advances, but like really, he would go super out of his way to avoid me. It was just so unnecessary and it added to the already awkward situation. Do you really have to do that? I dunno, it kinda made me feel hurt.. like I was hated or something, and that's never a good feeling, you know? I felt he could have been a little more chill about it instead...  I dunno.That's when I started thinking... relationships between people are so fragile. I used to lament over this constantly when I was getting over my last breakup, but I realize it doesn't apply just to romantic relationships. That guy and I didn't have a romantic relationship (at least, not in my perspective), but our interactions and potentiality for friendship are forever altered after what happened. I feel like he and I could never be normal, friendly acquaintances, as much as I wish that we could. Same with a girl who was so close to becoming my new best friend. A single, simple, unnecessary event (caused by some random 3rd person) changed everything... it's sad, because we'd gotten along so well before that. But I guess I am a little bit of a hypocrite. I must admit it's not easy facing things, or rather people, when I feel embarrassed or whatever.  Off to study for my business law midterm. And eat food. I'm hungry. |
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Wow again. I disappeared off the blogging scene for another few months... it was another one of those moments.  Well, there's not much to report. I am still schooling, etc etc... More on all that later. Just writing real quick to say I'll be back. <3 PLUGS: Jon | Aleida | Rochelle | An | jess | Angela | Monica |
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So I actually have a midterm coming up in less than 2 days and I still can't bring myself to start studying. What's worse is that I haven't been to class since 4 weeks ago.... so I literally have no idea what is going to be on this test. But instead of learning stuff today, I spent most of the day on other miscellaneous tasks and now I am online blogging. Why do I do this to myself?  Hmm well there's not much new going on with me... I'm very excited for Thanksgiving break. I miss my room at home very much and I am pretty stoked for my mommy's cooking. I learned how to make a pretty awesome cheesecake sometime ago  so I'm thinking about surprising everyone with it.I watched Quantum of Solace and Twilight on Friday night. I movie-hopped, of course  I went with V, and it was supposed to be a casual movie night with no intentions attached, but he ended up ambushing me with dinner and everything before the movie, so I guess I got tricked into a full-fledged date. And the place he picked to eat was horrendously romantic. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike him and it's not like the date went badly, but we don't know each other very well so it kinda came out of nowhere for me.With the addition of V, the Mike situation (please refer to last blog) has gotten even more complicated since the last time. Why? Because they are freaking roommates....but I really don't feel like going into that right now... Speaking of him, I've been having a discussion with a friend of mine, and I was wondering what everyone else thought. How would you answer this? Do you believe there are such things as "friend zones" that limit the kinds of relationships a girl can have with a guy? You know how they say once a guy gets "friended", a romantic relationship can't develop... And do you think that it's good/bad/possible to go from being friends to being something more? Just something to think about. I've been interested to know what other people thought about it. Oh yeah, so Twilight the movie. I thought the casting for most of the characters was pretty good. I especially liked the girl they picked for Bella, she was exactly the way I thought she would be like. So kudos to them  The vampire family was pretty good too, I guess, but omg I really think they could have picked a better guy to play Edward I'm sorry if anyone out there thinks the opposite, this is just my own opinion. He was just so awkward in the movie..... sigh  The movie itself wasn't bad, though they really skimmed over a lot of stuff... Oh well, the movies usually don't match up to the book anyway, right? I was really happy I got to see it though.Anyway, I guess I really should buckle down. Until next time  <3 PLUGS: Rochelle | Elriowiel | Ann | Claudine |
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First of all, thanks for all the congrats!  Secondly, I really shouldn't have been complaining about life being boring... cuz now I am stressed and having a hard time. I had thought that I was gonna be living drama-free for a while, but it was not to be... Basically, I am having trouble handing this situation with Mike, who I met last year. So we've known each other for a year and, at least for me, we had a comfortable but just-friends relationship. And then I dunno what happened, but suddenly, he starts coming onto me. It's so stressful for me, for several reasons. First of all, he lives with and is a close friend to one of MY best friends... so I don't even know if I can tell her and ask for her advice. Next, I am having trouble with how to view him now, cuz it's like... suddenly, he's not really my friend anymore, he might not even want to be my friend anymore if I turn him down and the awkwardness gets too overwhelming. And lastly, I am terrible in general at being blunt and saying clearly what I want to say... so I am frustrated trying to think of ways to handle this scenario so that I can get the best possible outcome. Yesterday, he asked me out to dinner, and, according to him afterwards, it was supposed to be our first date. I panicked though and played dumb, as though I didn't realize that it was a date, so I nonchalantly invited my roommate to come too. Of course, he couldn't say no cuz she was there in the room with me... but luckily it wasn't awkward, it was a nice dinner with the 3 of us. Afterwards though, my roommate had somewhere else to go, leaving him and me alone at the room  So that was when he spelled everything out for me...I dunno, maybe I'll give it some time to see if things can change, but if I still won't be able to see him as more than a friend, then I am prolly just gonna have to do something about it. Lastly, this isn't supposed to make me that happy, but my little brother has been going through post-breakup depression and he's actually started relying on me as an older sister. And, you know, I've had plenty experience with the whole heartbreak department, so I gave him as much advice as I could and I think it really helped him. And he's started being really close to me. It makes me feel pretty good to finally have such a good relationship with him - we've always been really distant. I'm just glad I could be there for him. <3 PLUGS: Kya | Veronica | Cassandra | An | Sheeda | Chelsea | Kristi | Fee | Cecelia | Marsha |
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